29 Tuesday 07/08 01:00am
hey diary,
oh.. moms calling me now to sleep... i don't have much time to tell u...
i am going to India 2morrow morning and know
tonight...it was the worst night....
mom and dad crashing and all that stupid routine stuffs...
anyway....i still hope that i will see debraj once at least before going to India....
see u soon after a month with all my news and happenings...
pls pray that it shud be gud always...
with luv,
signing off not for now but maybe for a month.....
nimu
Wednesday, 30 July 2008
Tuesday, 29 July 2008
28th july 08
28 Monday 07/2008 12:15am
hi diary, it was fair today...
i woke up myself today without mom's call... according to me, its an 8Th world wonder...
varsha missed her calls on me 3 times coz, i was in a deep sleep till 10am... after then, she called me up and we spoke a little.. we spoke each other mostly about rohit and arjun... know who arjun is??? he is a classmate of varsha.. varsha asked me to help her kidding him with an idea of fooling him by telling that i am having a gr8 crush on him and all that stuffs... actually varsha is a little fool to tell me that coz, if she give my number to him then she cannot tell that i am her neighbour coz, i live in Dubai and to call anyone on Dubai from India the code is needed... ha ha... then she disconnected her mobile when her mom came...
debraj,,, i didn't see him today also...
actually i am in a confusion that Wat should i pray... if i pray that i shouldn't go to India then i can be here loving him and missing ma sis and her chubby, lovely children...
but if i pray that i should go to India and i will have a gr8 time there and miss debraj a lot...
but anyways its must to go to India...and its OK coz its only for a month... and probably and of course normally i always miss debraj coz.. its just an one way love.... i think maybe i am going to India on 30 and coming back on august 31 or something...
i was only a little stressed today and i don't have to take it seriously coz its nothing much as i had before... my reminds of old memories and new evil ful events became a daily routine for me...
OK anyways, nothing more on today,
signing off a pretty happy day- nimsha
hi diary, it was fair today...
i woke up myself today without mom's call... according to me, its an 8Th world wonder...
varsha missed her calls on me 3 times coz, i was in a deep sleep till 10am... after then, she called me up and we spoke a little.. we spoke each other mostly about rohit and arjun... know who arjun is??? he is a classmate of varsha.. varsha asked me to help her kidding him with an idea of fooling him by telling that i am having a gr8 crush on him and all that stuffs... actually varsha is a little fool to tell me that coz, if she give my number to him then she cannot tell that i am her neighbour coz, i live in Dubai and to call anyone on Dubai from India the code is needed... ha ha... then she disconnected her mobile when her mom came...
debraj,,, i didn't see him today also...
actually i am in a confusion that Wat should i pray... if i pray that i shouldn't go to India then i can be here loving him and missing ma sis and her chubby, lovely children...
but if i pray that i should go to India and i will have a gr8 time there and miss debraj a lot...
but anyways its must to go to India...and its OK coz its only for a month... and probably and of course normally i always miss debraj coz.. its just an one way love.... i think maybe i am going to India on 30 and coming back on august 31 or something...
i was only a little stressed today and i don't have to take it seriously coz its nothing much as i had before... my reminds of old memories and new evil ful events became a daily routine for me...
OK anyways, nothing more on today,
signing off a pretty happy day- nimsha
Sunday, 27 July 2008
27 july 2008
Sunday 27 07/2008 11:45pm
dear diary, i kept my word that i will write you today also....
yeah, today varsha replied me by asking about rohit's number and i gave her also....
know diary? rohit went a little nuts today coz... he today was talking only about this topic- sex pleasure... he also send me a mail of nude pics... i think he was a little aroused today...
he is and always will be a gud friend of mine... but somethings changing him... i said about this problem to ansar.. he was startled... and i hope he will find me a solution... i told varsha also to be alert on this matter... she is a very silly and innocent gal...
today most of the time i was day dreaming about debraj...ha ha ... i also made a cute love story between us...
coming to my unsuccessful and failing life... i still did not get anyone to tell about it... i cant decide to who shud i tell that... i respect all my friends and feel bad to tell them...
OH god??? why are you like this to me always??? pls grace upon me...
in the name of god...
see u later, diary!!! -nimsha
dear diary, i kept my word that i will write you today also....
yeah, today varsha replied me by asking about rohit's number and i gave her also....
know diary? rohit went a little nuts today coz... he today was talking only about this topic- sex pleasure... he also send me a mail of nude pics... i think he was a little aroused today...
he is and always will be a gud friend of mine... but somethings changing him... i said about this problem to ansar.. he was startled... and i hope he will find me a solution... i told varsha also to be alert on this matter... she is a very silly and innocent gal...
today most of the time i was day dreaming about debraj...ha ha ... i also made a cute love story between us...
coming to my unsuccessful and failing life... i still did not get anyone to tell about it... i cant decide to who shud i tell that... i respect all my friends and feel bad to tell them...
OH god??? why are you like this to me always??? pls grace upon me...
in the name of god...
see u later, diary!!! -nimsha
26 Saturday 07/2008 12:45pm
hi diary, long time no see...
yeah i have messed up with all my pen friends and i donno why varsha never replies me back nowadays... she might have got busy with studies... that's all right..
diary, i would have not written to u now also but coz i was in a gr8 stress that since two weeks i started reckoning my old memories and my fail love... according to me i cant call it a fail love coz, i love debraj so much that no one will love him like that... its not a problem to me but still sometimes it stresses and troubles me that i have never and will never ever tell him about my love and the circumstance will not allow me to do that... i saw debraj passing in front of me just two weeks ago... he just even didn't recognized me... and all these triggers and say to my mind that he is just not for me... today, evening my parents went off to drop my aunt in her home and i was free in home for a while... at that time, i just then cried out all my stress and just spoke out my problems alone to myself... maybe and so i hope that god will at least listen to me...
my Friends are really lucky and they always have chances to hangout with their bf and do stuffs like dating and all that... but i.... i just pray and beg god that i always see and be nearer to him to see him happy at least from a far distance.... i just need only a look of happiness in his face to satisfy all my stress.... that's more than enough for me....
uhmmhhh.... i know it will never happen as my future is in the hands of fate, luck and circumstance which do at least something to other and nothing to me... i am not so optimist and i know that its not use to be an optimist....
but i just hope that god will listen to me one day...
signing off for now, nimsha...
hi diary, long time no see...
yeah i have messed up with all my pen friends and i donno why varsha never replies me back nowadays... she might have got busy with studies... that's all right..
diary, i would have not written to u now also but coz i was in a gr8 stress that since two weeks i started reckoning my old memories and my fail love... according to me i cant call it a fail love coz, i love debraj so much that no one will love him like that... its not a problem to me but still sometimes it stresses and troubles me that i have never and will never ever tell him about my love and the circumstance will not allow me to do that... i saw debraj passing in front of me just two weeks ago... he just even didn't recognized me... and all these triggers and say to my mind that he is just not for me... today, evening my parents went off to drop my aunt in her home and i was free in home for a while... at that time, i just then cried out all my stress and just spoke out my problems alone to myself... maybe and so i hope that god will at least listen to me...
my Friends are really lucky and they always have chances to hangout with their bf and do stuffs like dating and all that... but i.... i just pray and beg god that i always see and be nearer to him to see him happy at least from a far distance.... i just need only a look of happiness in his face to satisfy all my stress.... that's more than enough for me....
uhmmhhh.... i know it will never happen as my future is in the hands of fate, luck and circumstance which do at least something to other and nothing to me... i am not so optimist and i know that its not use to be an optimist....
but i just hope that god will listen to me one day...
signing off for now, nimsha...
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